I am so excited that I have moved to a new blog. I wanted to make a move so that it would be easier for me to upload pictures and make them look spectacular so that is what I did! I love it...

http://www.foreveroctoberphotography.com/blog

These are pretty cute kids! How fun it was to take pictures! I have taken pictures of this family before and now they have a new addition. How fun is that for me to watch kids grow and see them change from year to year. This little boy has the most amazing eyes!
This week has been so very weird. I decided that I wanted to spend more time at home so I decided to leave Steiner Homes. It is a sad time for me because I have come to love the guys that I work with! It is such a loss for me to not interact with them everyday. It will definitely be a transition for me to not have my phone ringing constantly. I think I will definitely have to adjust.
I worry that I won't get dressed in the morning or I will spend my time eating and watching tv. I think I might do that for a week or two...but hope full it will give me more time to get things done. I thought that when my kids went to school I would have so much more time, but the older they get the busier I am...it never slows down. Now there are so many things my kids are involved in and it is hard to keep up. I also don't feel like I could give the time or attention that my job needed. I felt that I was not doing either of my jobs very well..

So we will see where my new adventure takes me! I am excited to actually get diner on the table or feel like I am caught up on laundry!

I just love these pictures. I just love these two people....

I cannot tell you how much fun I had with Kim and Jonathan! I wanted to go and see Kim in San Antonio and meet Jonathan who she is fixin to be married to. I was a little nervous to go but when I found out that I got to take some pictures while I was there it put my mind at ease. I also get nervous meeting new people and being in a different enviroment. I always do fine but my initial reaction is one of nervousness.

I could not be more excited about the two of them getting married. Jonathan is one of the nicest people I have met in a long time not to mention he is a looker!!! Even Daniel thought he might have a little crush on him. Besides that he is perfect for Kim and I could tell instantly that he really loves her. Kim of course is always gorgeous and I love to be around her. She makes me feel creative even when I am not. I miss being creative with her. I think that there is one person in our life who really understands us and I think that Kim is that person for me. She is always encouraging... never letting me doubt myself.

These are just some of the day. Of course all three of us like to take pictures so you can imagine how many we took. The funny thing is we did all of it in about an hour and a half. It was a whirlwind.

So tomorrow is my birthday and I get to be grateful for the people in my life. This little family of mine definitely gets me up in the morning and sends me exhausted to bed at night.

I got to take pictures of Carsons and Jadens preschool teacher there are some people in your life that are truly blessings.

Okay so I find this woman beautiful. She has been loving two of my boys since we moved here to Indiana. Oh I could not have picked a more perfect person to take care of them. Every day with the biggest smile on her face she has comforted them, loved them, taught them. You can tell just by looking at her that just being around her makes a person smile.

I could have never imagined a hotter day than this wedding day! It was so humid and miserable but the day was carried out without a hitch. The bride and groom were so natural and in touch with each other. It was a privilege to share the day with them.

Love...It is such a funny thing. It takes you by surprise and defies expectations. It holds you prisoner and sets you free. Who knew that on the day that we say "I do" that love will be put to the test in so many different ways. The worst thing to do is hold back your love in fear. It is terrifying to let go and trust. Your love could not be returned.

But then I would miss...

his blue eyes

his touch

his laugh

his smell

his tears of humility

his warmth

his prayers at night in the dark...

I would jump into the darkness for him to never miss a moment of his love ...

This wedding we did a photo booth. I loved it, I thought it was so much fun. They really let their personalities out! I want to do it every time. I wish I could post all of the images that I had but I can't.

Just loved it!

Wow it has been a full weekend. Never complaining though. Had a much needed girls night out. Had the pleasure of shooting a wedding. And I got to take the lovely Kimberly's senior pictures. These pictures speak for themselves... she is just stunning!

At the beginning of taking pictures I asked her if she was "ready for this." We did some breathing to relax and then Daniel showed her some very simple poses. He is getting really good at it. He showed her how to make a "S" curve with her body and how to breathe through her lips right before a shot. I love having him around.

He just makes life so very entertaining. I would not change it for anything.

I do like life being busy. It keeps my mind off how fast the summer is going and how fast everyone is growing up. My daughter got a cell phone. I knew that it would be challenging but I wanted to be able to keep better tabs on her. Little did I know that I would now be getting texts from down stairs like "what are we having for diner," or "can I have a barbie birthday cake" as she is supposed to be taking a shower. She like her father keeps my life interesting.

This week we are off to girls camp. So another really busy week. Things at my job at Steiner are really starting to go well and I am blessed that I get to do my favorite job of taking pictures but it keeps me busy. I have something else that has kept me up at night with excitement. The thought of it makes me want to jump up and down like a little girl. I can't talk about it yet because no decisions have been made but it made me realize that the world is full of possibilities and taking a leap is just darn exciting.

All I can say today is Thank You!

Thank you for the beautiful weather.

Thank you for my beautiful family.

Thank you for time.

Thank you for intimacy.

Thank you for different perspectives.

Thank you for my life.

I have been taking a workshop to improve my photography skills. It is all about changing my perspectives. To add more foreground interest, to use negative space, experiment with dramatic lighting. I love doing it. I love thinking differently. I have been combing through magazines and photography books. I have enjoyed looking through the eyes of so many different people. My favorite magazine by the way is "Vanity Fair". I went to the library and checked out all they had. They have the most interesting photographic spreads out there. They are always very dramatic and I love that.

But today we went to the beach and I again am reminded why I took up photography, to capture the lives of my children. I hope when all is said and done that they will look back and remember all the wonderful times that we had. At the end of one of my favorite songs it says...

When the years are showing on my face

and my strongest days are gone

When my heart and flesh depart this place

from a life that sung your song

You'll still be the one I want

You'll still be the one I want....

They are what I want and hope that my life sings their song....

I see lovers in the streets walking without a care

they wear it out loud like there is something in the air.

If they are lucky they'll get to see

and if they're really, really lucky they will get to feel...

If they are truly blessed then they get to believe

You kick so hard it breaks your bones

It cuts so deep It hits your soul

Tears your skin and makes your blood flow

It is better that you know that...

Love is hard....

Love is hard.... If it was easy it wouldn't mean nothing..

These words are just little parts of a song by James Morrison. They have become my truth. My meaning for the word love has changed for me in the last couple of months. I thought I loved....I did not know that it would take something that shattered my world to help me understand what it meant to really love. To love myself, my husband, my children. I have had to deal with my pain on my own. I have had to rely on that I am a daughter of God to get me through.

But I am turning a corner...

And now I feel lucky

I get to see.

I get to feel.

I get to believe.

Love means so much to me now.

I feel it as I write this.

I feel it as I hear my husband snoring next to me.

I feel it during Sunday morning breakfasts.

My life is different now...and I am excited for the possibilities.

Have not taken my kids out in so long to take pictures...They are truly loved by me.

I have the most of Carly because she is turning 13 and I wanted to remember her this way..